My Déjà Vu, My Déjà Vu

It’s been ages since I last wrote something. It’s not that there was no material but I dint think that it was significant enough to write and remember. This will be like the black hole of my life which I will have to forget when I move on. So the less I wrote about it the better. I have grown up or you can say fucked things up much more during the last two years than the four years before it. It’s just that the older you are the more mistakes you make because you know that you are running out of time. I thought maybe by writing this down I will not make the same mistakes again or at least try not to.

Anyways with the number of fuck ups that I have made I don’t have enough time/space to write about all of them. But today when I was watching this trailer of He is not that into you (ok, before you judge me there are like n good actors in this movie, if the script was that bad so many people would not accepted to act, so my premise is it should be an okay movie) and yeah I was an ardent followed of the whole SATC series. So, I thought why not read the book and you know prepare for the movie. ( well i m very much into comparing stuff how bad the movie is when compared to the novel or the original version, I am just obsessed cant help it, I have seen Twilight just to know how bad the movie was ok I did kinda sorta found the novel ok in a i-so-bored-i-can-read-any-crap kinda way)

Here I am in the office reading a self help book (that’s the lowest low for me and that too a dating self help book) I can kill myself if someone found out that I am reading this book. This book is basically the best articles from a dating guide column. As I was reading, I realized how stupid, how idiotic all these people who wrote to these guys were. They are ready to do just about anything, anything to hold on to some one or something so that they don’t feel lonely/alone. I mean is the idea of living alone so bad, so awful that even though they feel like crap they stick to asshole. Anyways so the more I read the novel/whatever-you-call-it, I felt like it was a montage of all those stories I have been hearing for the past 5 years. I even tried to shrink a few but yeah you can never solve these problems because no one will ever listen. I am dying to watch this movie anyways.

But then I realized that this book cannot be applied to our situation as in the Great Indian Scenario. Because, half the things that the book talks about cannot happen here whatever be the reason. It’s like everybody is so repressed because of those deep rooted prejudices or whatever they call them, they can’t change even if they need to change. So, the question is do we need a new self help book in the Indian context, you know maybe give them all those tips about how to make you matrimony column look better or how to maintain your profile in those websites. It is hilarious to this about it all of this now but deep down every one knows that one day we have to bite the dust and follow the same path. Anyways I don’t know what I am talking about. I am just rambling because the book disturbed me in some way. I just can’t get it out of my head.

I am just tired of listening to these lamenting stories all day long. Ok for the record, I work in a software company, where I can’t have a conversation with anyone except for S. So, I ramble and try to loose myself by mindless gossip that goes around. So at this point I am so sick and tired of people whining all the time that this book kind of broke my patience. I can no longer listen to these stories and feel bad about people because they don’t want change.