My Year End Blues
The year has finally come to an end. A year where nothing much has changed except maybe I am a year older and a little wiser. I m still in the same job I was in last year still in the same city still with the same friends. Nothing ever changes but then it all depends on how much you want things to change, when you are used to living in the past I dont think you would want anything around you to be different. Atleast acknowledging your follies is a step. I have finally accepted the fact that living is the past is not only screwing up my present but probably the future. So I am definitely wiser.
When I think about it though I have done nothing so new or adventurous I sure have accepted reality a little better. I have moved out of the winter wonderland I was living before and I am standing in the middle of the desert trying to move on. Maybe I ll be stuck here for a while but a change of scene always is better.
I have been living alone for two months and this sure has put things in perspective. How I analyze everyone around me constantly and never just letting things be.
Yet another year comes to an end, a year older and wiser ( i hope so). A lot of insignificant things have happened nothing too dramatic that would change my life, but some pretty big life changing moments are also slipped in somewhere in between. Nothing to complain about it was not the worst but definitely not the best.
The year started here in Hyderabad after four long years in Roorkee. I was getting used to the idea of a job still. Just moved in into my new place and cooking. But somewhere down the line the job has become yet another thing I am supposed to do just to get by and I am living alone and cooking is now nowhere on the agenda, its either soups or ready to eat pastas. So, I have definitely become lazier. If someone looks at my life I guess these are the only things that have changed.
But inherently I have stopped trying to please people around me. I no longer give a damn about what people think of me behind my back. I am no longer affected by what people think about me (at least the ones in my office so that’s a start). I have become a little more open about what I want
Yet another post into the blackhole. Maybe this year I might be able to understand the nobility in imperfection.
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