My Karma

the title of this post may be a lil too philosophical even to me but it does have a lot to do with what i do to screw things up and how my bad karma gets me...
This blog may actually help to put down some things that i dont htink will be vocalizing for sm time or may be never ....
when u build a wall around urself and never let anybody in its always perfect because u never know the downside of anything but once this wall is broke it all rushes out and all u want to do is talk and not sm high school prep talk but things that really matter to u and those that will effect u and the other person. but how can a person who has never tried todo so before suddenly become the ronin....people dont understand this or may be its just the way it is spsed to be....who knows
thats where the bad karma comes u dont want to talk the other person wants u to intialize things so it goes no where ...the n u cant act normal .....its just a vicious circle with no straight answer..........
when i get to the answer i ll definitely post it..